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Thursday, July 27, 2017
From FRUSTRATED WITH LIFE, Ch. 7, "Weird"
“Do you like Kipling?”
“I don’t know. I’ve never kippled.”
"Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing
monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward."
C. S. Lewis
bacon, life is just lettuce and tomatoes.”
From livescience.com (2012): in your
lifetime, your chance of being hit by junk falling from outer space is less
than 1 in a billion.
think you have trouble? #447 is “tired of my D-cup tits.” She’s tired of having
to refrain from vulgar language…and tired of not being heard.
the letters of “weird” around, and you get “wired.” #303 has a bi-polar brother
so tightly wired, he’s driving the rest of the family nuts.
contributors have school trouble: one changed to a better college only to find
it was too hard. Another feels brainwashed at the university.
the winner of the most-weird award is the martial artist, #133, who loves to
hear bones crack and looks forward to choking his (we assume it’s a guy) opponent
the outlandish year of the presidential election of 2016, it is hard to find
normality against which to judge weird, but some of these bloggers clearly
Winslow Cooper, Ph.D.
woman I know is a wack job, shes jealous and crazy and she stalks everyone on
facebook too.. she really needs to get a life and mental help for her issues.
is a really great site.....just reading other ppl's frustations i feel my
frustration lightening.....i was hell frustrated with my life...liked nothing
around me....i felt like i am a burden on earth..neither can i stay happy
myself nor can i make anybody else happy or even let the ppl around me stay
happy...i have loads of friends..close n good ones too..but now i just feel i
am overburdening them with my problems..problems with absolutely no
problem....they must be thinking i am a total moron...tired of me...i want to
stay happy but something or the other just keeps coming up n disrupts me...it
seems i just cant be happy..as if happiness is a temporary state of mind.
got tipsy and really imbelished the truth. It wasn’t a lie. I’m a dramatic
person but it made me feel uncomfortable since my coworker was sitting there
and knew I was exaggerating. Ugh! She probably could careless but I obsess and
mull over things I say. Why do I have to be so analytical about myself and why
do I mull over it??
people call me a complainer... But doesn’t everyone complain? I can’t say that
I do it insistently. I guess I’m just an easy target because I don’t hold back.
I also think I’m entitled to things that should be across the board. I am
really fed up this week. I need a vacation from life!!!
colleague she is ...strange...very strange wonder if she’s allien...ish.
am so frustrated with the direction my life is going in, I cannot get into
higher education, I have a learning disability, and no one is hiring in my
field of study so I cannot prove my work ethic. I am a martial artist and the
only joy in life I have is hurting others, physically. I love to feel the crack
of bones when I strike. I love to see my opponent on the ground gasping for air
after I have delivered a precise shot. I want to choke them out until I hear a
gurgle or a faint choking noise. I want to watch the limp collision of their
limbs to the mat. But I hold it back sometimes. My heart races and i get shaky
just thinking about it, like now. All the frustration, anger, hatred and
failure i have in my life momentarily disappears.
am weird. I used to be popular bcos I suppressed the real me and i wasnt happy.
Now I let it out I have no frenz or any men who loves me for who I am ( I'm
hard to love, I'm insane, obsessed with fault finding) .
used to refused to admit I was depressed , being chronically ill with disease
that is as grave as cancer. Now I indulge in my antidepressant that takes me to
another world of vivid dreams and I slept 14 to 16 hours through, missing my
meetings at work.
don't know how to handle my life anymore. I just want to run. I went for
vacations and the whole wide world thinks I'm happy person. They didn't know
this was a facade I put up for others and myself, running away from problems,
only to come home and face larger problems.... Debts and more debts.
in the rat race. Tired weak and old. No, I'm only 30 years old. Already
shitting in my own pants all the time.
a matter of time that I m getting fired from my job to get into a much worse
a shit hole that was dug and created by my own hand... But wait I didn't ask to
be born into this world, this family nor to suffer this fuck up and mess up
disease that mess my health and mind all the fucking time.
I didn't choose to come to this world. God have grace on me and take me away
from this world into another land, free from sufferings.
so frustrated about life i have a brother who is bi polar
has emotional problems
live next to him i mean literally i share a room with him
sucks because of the way he acts because of his condition i cant even
sleep,eat,have company over because im afraid he`s going to blow a tantrum
right infront of company and make things uncomfortable.
any of us(my mother, brothers ,family etc) make any movements(walking,talking
loudly,laughing,watching tv etc at home) My Bi polar brother gets up and starts
blasting his music really loud and starts mumbling gibberish to everysong,if
he`s not doing that he gets up and starts talking to himself in frustration and
then starts screaming in anger(this has been going on for years)yes we have
been trying to get him help but HE refuses,we try`d telling him in every
possible way to stop acting that way be he still continues to do it just to get
us upset ,im pissed and frustrated because it has effected my family and i BIG
TIME, we barley can concentrate on anything,especially me,i try holding it in
like it doesnt effect me but it does ,since i have so much anger inside of me ,i
take that attitude to work and around people, thats why i think i dont have no
friends ,girlfriend because of it,im usually quiet around people and stuck in
my own head most of the time which sucks ,people dont realize why i have this
mean attitude but i think it mostly has to do for that particular reason,i dont
feel free ,i feel trapped,i dont feel suicidal because i feel like thats the
punk way to go,but i feel like screaming ,exploding like a ticking time
bomb,all i want is a simple life,car people to hangout laugh with,travel,etc is
that to much to ask for???
just took admission in a new college by leaving my old college but it turned
out to be by far the most worst decision in my life.i am failing in every paper
in the exam i just appeared for ,while my old college set easy papers and where
i cud easily pass.i regret leaving my college and now i am frustrated,guilt
trapped,angry,dont knw wer to go.i just wish i cud go back in time and change
my decision.being an average student in academics this is gonna be a huge blow
on my career.i m screwed and will hav to take a year off and start again to
which my dad wont agree.i m just done.this never really happened before..this
50 life gets interesting...or boring should I say. This is getting beyond me to
understand what to plan. Secure what you have or go after new ones. Time and
life only could tell if I made my choices right... IT would be wonderful if we
can all do simple life and not live by threats...
life has been so comfortable for me....bt i m lonely....i m 20 n i get people
who r least interested in me... no Bf n i hav a fren who gets more attention
then me. where as i feel she is nt worth it. I get frustrated every single day
since my fren over takes me by stepping on the steps i made n takes credit in
every thing,i dnt know y we r frenz as i know she is too nt interested in
me...i think she is using me for her motive. i try to be positive every day bt
i feel she is taking all my loved ones away from me!! i m so frustrated wit my
life that i m so lonely n cnt express it to any 1.... :-(
I’m just like fuck everything! But then I can’t seem to fuck anything!!!
fuckkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!! fuck you fuck this i want to fucking die! I want to
scream i want to hurt i do hurt! fuckkkk
tired. At the tender of age of 29 i feel tired. I feel aged and gray. I feel as
if my prime has passed both physically and mentally. I dont ever want a kid so
im really tired of hearing people say i need a kid. I have kids....about 180 at
the high school and about another 30 with tutoring. im tired of my d-cup tits.
They are heavy and have become the only way a man will listen to me. Im tired
of shaving my fucking legs, waxing my ass and grooming my face so that i dont
look like Frida Khalo although she was fucking cool! Im tired of living with
someone for 5 years who still cant tell when i want to fuck....what the fuck is
right. Im tired on the gun violence in America, the threat alerts from school.
Im tired of Trump and Hillary. Im tired of America behaving like a teenage girl
with others countries on foreign affair and random shootings happening within
like an untimely oral herpes outbreak. Im tired of hating Kardashian for being
successful for no reason, or wishing Malala wasnt so fucking forgiving. Im tired
of Trevor Noah on the Daily Show...i miss Jon ::sad face:: Im tired of waking
up everyday and playing robot. Make breakfast, take a poop, shower up, go to
work/school, come home and have dinner...poop again. Im tired of no gluten, or
cheese, or sugar in my food. Im tired of having to refrain from vulgar
tired of not being heard..
really frustrated with the worldview that has been formed through the thorough
and subtle brainwashing of us as a whole.
a college student and unfortunately the system accepts anxiety stress and all
that comes with it as a normal occurrence.
know for deep down that this is not the way life works.
fact and the obligation of having to fit in with a group of people in the
university,whose ideas and ambitions I do not share kills me slowly everyday.
F. Day (2015) You’re Never Weird on the Internet
(Almost): A Memoir
C. Groeschel (2011) Weird: Because Normal Isn’t Working
B. Keephimattracted and B. Nox (2016) F*ck Him – Nice Girls Always Finish
Excerpted from Guzman and Cooper (2017), FRUSTRATED WITH LIFE? YOU ARE NOT ALONE! based on years of blog entries at http://FrustratedWithLife.com. The book is available in paperback at amazon.com. Would-be authors are invited to see my site WriteYourBookWithMe.com.