UPDATE, SEPTEMBER 2013
Many weeks have gone by, and I
still have not been able to get back up to see my sister.
Between medical appointments
and tests, farm work, animal care, etc., I cannot seem to reach a condition
allowing me to escape for a couple of days. The days are getting shorter, which
has put me into a panic mode. I do not want to drive upstate in the dark.
There have been some very bad
things happening with Alan’s daughter lately. He has asked me not to write
about them. I will make that decision after I have the time and space to give
it more thought.
I had dinner with my old
police friend and his wife. I really love both of them, and we had a wonderful
time. How nice to sit and talk to them! We need to get together more often.
AUTUMN SADNESS 2013
Soon the snow and cold weather
will be here. The wood stove will be going 24/7 trying to keep this 1881
farmhouse warm. Almost the only warm place in our house is the chair in front
of the stove. The very high ceilings capture most of the heat, so if I could
figure out a way to live up by the ceilings, we could stay warm. You might be
thinking: why not fix it? When I win the lottery! Since I don’t play the
lottery, it’s not going to happen.
This is my saddest time of the
year. These feelings go all the way back to my life at the Lake. All my friends
from summer would go back to their lives in the city, and I would not see them
again until the late spring.
SISTER NOVEMBER
2013
I visited my sister again this
month. I had promised her I would be back as soon as the mowing was done for
the season and before the Daylight Savings Time change, as I do not want to
drive in the dark if possible.
I drove back up to her home
last week. She seemed a little better, but not much. She simply does not want
to live alone. I try to point out some of the advantages of living alone, as I
lived for 25 years, but she does not want to hear it.
Both of our birthdays are in
November, so I took her out to dinner, and her neighbors came as well. We had a
good time. I actually saw my sister smile and enjoy herself. She has wonderful
neighbors who keep an eye on her. Thank God!
Today is my sister’s birthday.
I wish I could do something to help her more. I try to point out to her the
positive things in her life, but she does not see them yet. The days when I was
at my sister’s house, I tried to get her to take a walk with me. She said she
couldn’t because she has a bad back, and the walk would get her back hurting
again.
She has a deck that looks out
onto the woods in her backyard. I asked her to come with me to sit on the deck
and eat lunch. At first she said she wouldn’t, but then she came out and sat at
the table where I was eating my lunch.
The squirrels and chipmunks
were running around, getting ready for the upcoming winter. It was quiet,
peaceful, beautiful. My sister was not enjoying what I was delighting in, and
she wanted to go back into the house. She said that it was cold. I did not
think so, but in we went. She also smokes, so to me the fresh air was
wonderful. I think she doesn’t realize that a non-smoker could not live with
her. Again, I wish I could fix all this, but I cannot.
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